When I was much younger my husband said I was self-centered. He was often worried I would leave him. If I went out with friends and came home late, he drank whisky until he passed out. He tried to be a good husband, to wash the dishes, do the laundry, and clean the toilet, but for years I did what I wanted, and sometimes I told him what I did, but most times I pretended to be too tired to talk. Now I wonder about those early years. We are childless. I'm too old, too set in my ways. He's too focused on his career. I regret my self-centeredness. I don't understand why he stayed with me. I'm not a nurturer. But he must know this because he has low expectations for me. All he wants is for me to talk to him. Tell him about my day. Ask him, how was work?
First published by Camroc Press Review, April 24, 2014.
Gessy Alvarez is founder and managing editor of the literary website, Digging through the Fat. Her prose has appeared in Entropy, Drunk Monkeys, Extract(s), Literary Orphans, Bartleby Snopes, Thrice Fiction, Pank, and other publications. An excerpt of her first novel, The Last Kingdom in Astoria, was recently featured in Vol. 1 Brooklyn.
Celebrate the end of the year with a new flash fiction piece from our Writer of the Month, Gessy Alvarez. Countdown along with "Twelve Grapes".
It’s tradition to eat twelve grapes the last twelve seconds before the New Year. For luck, Nick says. I hate countdowns. This anticipation for the end is a cock-block. The cat sits on the sofa. I push my feet under her furry belly. She whips her head around, but Nick brushes her away before she can nip my ankle.
Our Writer of the Month, Gessy Alvarez, returns with a very honest look at marriage without children in "Childless".
He tried to be a good husband, to wash the dishes, do the laundry, and clean the toilet, but for years I did what I wanted, and sometimes I told him what I did, but most times I pretended to be too tired to talk.
Writer of the Month Gessy Alvarez stuns with a tough short story, "Lunchbox".
Every afternoon, for the last three years, we’ve followed Blue to the gas station across town. He likes to slide inside a dented, rusty phone-booth there. The phone company ripped the phone out years ago, but left the booth behind.
For her first selection as our Writer of the Month for December 2015, Gessy Alvarez of Digging Through the Fat shares the bad ass flash fiction piece, "Herstory".
They say, without destruction nothing is born. They forget to tell you that sometimes what's born is already dead.